"I get paranoid sometimes and i'm convinced everyone hates me. I have been told i just have social anxiety. I think i'm just smart enough to know the face of human nature is so horrifyingly ugly."
Ill admit that i constantly stress about what others think of me. Whether i'm pretty enough, acting normal, or even just good enough.
Stress is a apart of life.
Today i went to college groups with out my side kick in crime: My Best Friend.
She wasn't feeling good so i went solo.
The entire time i felt like my dizziness was going to take over my life because i seriously cant go outside anymore.
The worst part was i felt stuck there... like i didn't have my best friend to take me home if things got terrible.
By the end of the night i ended up having a great time once i let that i was feeling sick go and that is ok. I KNOW its not all in my head but i need to learn how to live with it until it gets better.
I often resort to this quote:
"Don't Stress about it.
Just think of it as a caged bird being set free. You'll worry about the bird and how its handling things, but you know you did the right thing and you just have to trust that things will turn out all right."
On a positive note.
My Best Friend and I are ok.
Oh Great Mother Of Jesus Christ!! This is the best news ever. I seriously thought i ruined the best thing i had in my life. I am so happy!
Sorry for the short blog. its 11:58 and i ran out of time.... Shoot
11.13.12
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