Too Many Words 11.16.12

Ok so immense frustration time.
Have you ever had a person treat you like tar and you have only treated them with friendly respect and love? We'll for some reason i have one of these problems of a person leached to me.
I have no idea what is going on in this person's mind. Can anyone guess who this person is?
Well lets play a game to try to guess who it is.
Ok for starters i have mentioned this person in my blog. I have mentioned that they changed for the wrong. They are really frustrating. I feel like this person is playing games with the wrong person. They are FAKE... if that didn't give it away u need to go reread my blogs haha. Yup its ding ding ding Ms.FakeFace! Shocking shes in my blog again isn't it? I SWEAR I'm not obsessed with her... shes just a problem i have on my mind and i cant even express how frustrated i am that i cant fix this problem. Whats the problem you ask? This individual is fake and heartless. Sure she may wears the face of the past amazingly loving friend i once had. But sadly she is the empty shell of that person.
I have never done wrong to her. She sure acts like i have gave her hell all of her life lately. I have had My Best Friend ask her whats up with how shes treating me so terrible to have Ms.FF say, "don't get involved, its none of your problem." Then drop the conversation. Are You Freaking Kidding Me. She needs to at least tell someone why shes being a huge if i may say immature brat to me. Like I'm the person who she is treating like this and i have no idea why shes being like this. Like when I'm with the group, (who i have not heard of since that last blog) she acts all nice and hugs me, but when its just the two of us her true colors show. She has no right to be treating me like she had been. I haven't talked to her recently so i cant say she has done anything recently but I'm going off the past few conversations and in person encounters i have had with her. I'm getting to the point if i was to talk to her i would probably lash out at her. She just doesn't get it. I have been thinking back to when all the sex drama was going on and i stood up to her and called her out for being stupid for not believing My Best Friend. Also called bullshit on her "not taking sides" Suuuure tell your little black heart that to make help make you feel better about yourself you little Bitch. Yeah you heard me ms.FF. Gosh you make me laugh! What the hell have i EVER done to you? Oh BTW your dad is really shitty at his job. I never dis adults ever! But this is my special case. HIS job is a PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR and he cant tell if someone is lying to his face? May god save the queen on that one. Are you shitting me? I'm not some fancy investigator and i was able to tell the bastard was lying. Woot woot yeah I'm kinda awesome. Just kidding i suck at life but I'm becoming slowly ok with that.

Ms.FF if i ever get the chance to say this to your face i hope i have the courage.
I want to say this:
E****,
You have been a terrible friend. What the heck is wrong with you? You have become this person who is not you. The old you was not this egotistical freak with a stupid brain. yes i just called you stupid. Why are you treating me like this? What have i ever done to you? Sure i stood up to you but i had my friend's back when u left her for dead for i boy i know u probably have weird feelings for. Which is why i secretly think u tried to destroy My Best Friend so you wouldn't have her for competition. My sister is the one who helped me with this. She said your instagram makes you sound obsessed with him. Well your never gonna have a chance with him because he hates what u have become and how for someone who "moves on and forgets" Truly you will never this incident let this die. I know if they are ever together you will never let them be with out you babysitting. Also YOU sold him and My Best Friend out to your dad to "help them". How in gods name did your brain  come to that conclusion to think that was a good idea? Yeah your gonna tell your dad everything and he wont do anything about it? Why did u involve yourself? I was involved beacause i had to say the truth and give My Best Friend a voice. Why couldn't you either have kept it to your self like a REAL friend would have or brought it to the group? Your a idiot sweety.
I still don't understand what i EVER did to you. This game your playing really isn't fun anymore. Its a joke. I really hope you figure your self out because i promise you NO ONE likes the new you. Sure ill have the balls to say it to your face. NO ONE likes what u have become. I mean your laughing, snide comments and making faces during our talk. Yeah your a terrible and immature person. Never in my life have i seen the most mature person i have ever met resort to the maturity of that of a 10 year old. Oh and That weird personality you have downloaded. You must have gotten virus unfortunately and fried your circuits.
I'm really upset at you. Please tell me what your problem is!



My Best Friend I'm going to be honest for like 1 minute. I beg that you don't get mad for what I'm about to say.

I dont understand when u say undecided with Ms.FF when on instagram/facebook you guys post hearts and smiles all the time to each other. Either be her friend while she treats me like garbage or tell her that you don't like how shes treating me and have my back to help me fix it. It really upsets me that your talking to her while shes being a bitch. Remember when i went to her house and yelled some sense into her until she talked to me and i didnt let the "its none of my buisness" thing slide. All the while she had her back turned on you? Well the roles have now switched and you seem to be really close with her.
I love you so much and your my most valuable friend... the above isn't said in anger at all. I'm just expressing my hurt and concerns about this. I'm just having a hard time understanding it.... I have typed this passage like 9 times erasing it each and every time.. I hope I'm allowed to be honest lovely. I'm a coward that's why i wrote it in my blog... I know you tried to talk to her but i hope you remember i didn't care about what happened to her and my friendship to the point i yelled at her for you. I was kinda hoping you would have my back...
This is what i have been struggling with and why i have been acting weird and off lately. You being busy hence your distance did not help either but i understood.
I'm just becoming this worthless person. I just wish you could help. I know I'm a idiot and make all the wrong choices from thinking with my emotions and over react to everything. BUT i know somehow our friendship will last. We are forever friends. As that song said,
 
Wherever you go just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low just call me whenever
 
This is my oath to you

Wherever you go just always remember
You're never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change no matter the weather
 
This is my oath to you

AD INFINITUM <3

11.16.12