Its One of those moments that everyone goes through. I wishing to have a person who would text them everyday saying that they are beautiful and amazing. I am i one of those funks wishing i had a boyfriend. I have been single for so long its starting to get to me. I used to not care about dating or whatever. But being in a relationship is everywhere and i am always being reminded of that i'm single.
Either on Tumblr with the cute couples. My sister having her boyfriend over which makes me feel lonely Thinking back to every guy who i lied who didn't give me the time of day or that we just ended terrible. I even go to the store and see couples together to just the simple sign of a wedding ring. This has become a terrible habit of mine. If i see a cute boy i always look at his ring finger or look for a girl tided to his waist. I feel like i'm going to be single forever unforgettably. I'm 19 years old and never loved. In today's world of standards that's "really sad". I feel like i'm never going to be good enough for anyone. I might as well settle on a really ugly guy because that's all i have to pick from. I feel like everyone and their mom is dating or has had someone they loved. I'm just left alone to feel shitty about myself.
When will a good guy come alone and sweep me off my feet. Its always bottom feeders or just guys who want to have me. Why cant i be good enough? Yes i know i'm not sexy or hot, but i'm not that ugly either.. at least i hope i'm not.
So i feel like my depression is getting worse day by day.. I just Feel So Alone
11.18.12
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